As you can imagine, this weekend was quite full of emotion and I was grateful to have my mother in town to listen, remind me of so many truths and just commisserate with me from time to time. We laughed a bit because there was a time when I was so shut down to my emotions, that no one would have known I was hurting inside, even my own mother. Now I can function at work or the ballgame, and still be authentic enough to those I trust to let them see my feelings. I can be real even with myself. It's growth for me.
This Monday I'm feeling more in control of my emotions, though still tender. I've got a lot to keep me busy at work and home and then I have an unusual weekend free from childcare duties. I'll make some plans with friends and enjoy the downtime.
It's Monday, but after the onslaught of emotions I felt this weekend, I don't feel particularly moody today.
Sometimes, just not feeling feels so good. I'm sorry you're going through a rough time right now. This, too, shall pass...
ReplyDeleteI remember when my second child was diagnosed with a posibly terminal illness my mom said to me, "God doesn't give you more than you can handle" That's crap! I was so angry. I didn't need another clique. I informed her she was wrong. God gives us more than we can handle so we have to look to him for help.
ReplyDeleteIn times of pain and disappointment you really don't need another clique or someone telling you it will be better in time. You just need someone to hand you a tissue and let you cry or listen to you scream and rant without judgement. Feeling is a good thing. It's what lets us know we are alive. Hang in there and don't try to be a hero, just be human!
Hope you do not release your frustration at work! That will be disastrous.
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