Well, I've been going each week to the single mother's class at church. It still feels weird. There is little consistency among the participants and one week I was the only one there (besides teacher). There are three other ladies that seem to be there semi-regularly, and this week I feel I've gotten to know them a bit better. It still doesn't feel like a place where I'm ready to commit.
I'm beginning to think that this may simply be characteristic of this demographic: Challenging schedules, guarded hearts, unpredictable commitments. But I don't want these to be characteristic of me. So I'm questioing whether this is the right place for me.
Then I think of my 'regular' class. There is a lot of inconsistency there, too, just not quite as noticeable because the class has more participants in general. Maybe it is just characteristic of church in general - I don't like that.
Anyway, I'm still going to both classes, still not sure where I will eventually land. But I do know I'm not ready to give up my previous class for the sake of the new one. So, I'm giving myself time to keep considering.
I started a single parents group at work, and found that participation was also incredibly inconsistent. We met at lunch time, but even then, people couldn't always make it. Single parents are a hard group to keep together! (Mine eventually folded when my co-leader of the group left the company.)
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