Thursday, November 10, 2011
What has helped me is to embrace this time as a chance to revisit my dreams, hopes and goals. I always knew I would be a mother, and that hasn't been taken from me. Many years ago I chose to serve Christ and the church, and those are not things from which I have been excluded. There are friendships I have let slide, but being an intentional friend is high on my list of priorities. I abandoned family to try and save my marriage and now there is time to nurture these bonds, too.
I am still me. More than ever I know what I want and need to be content, joyful and fulfilled. Having this knowledge is priceless in the quest for determining my future path. I am no longer a wife. But that is only one definition of myself that is changed. I am still mother, daughter, sister, friend, employee and Christ follower. More personally, I am still a bit romantic, strangely optimistic, creative, a bit predictable, a lover of schedules and order and of course, recovering perfectionist with an idealistic nature.
The absence of a husband and the very real, though honorable obligations involved in that role have freed me to choose what gets more of me. I do more reading and writing. I reach out more intentionally to my friends. I take better care of my health and physical body. Because I know there is no one else looking out for me, I give myself permission to take care of myself.
Have you found any surprising discoveries in a challenging season? What can you do to take care of YOU today?