Being the only grown-up in a household can lend to some solitary times. Some may call this loneliness, but I'm one who tends to enjoy a bit of alone time and so I try to frame these hours more positively - solitude. Space to think. Free time. The truth is, those hours after the children are in bed and before I drift to sleep myself
are lonely. Often I call family or friends, work on household tasks, read.
I noticed that I began talking out loud during my times of solitude, then I realized I was really talking to God. To Jesus, actually. It didn't even seem odd and since I was all by myself so I kept doing it. I would talk to Him about everything: my budget, concerns with the chidlren, frustrations about ex, the discontent I sometimes feel...I began saying goodnight to Him as the last thing before I fall asleep and often talk to Him first thing in the morning. When I describe it, it does sound sort of silly yet this ongoing conversation has meant so much to me.
Recently I was in a discussion group about prayer and some were sharing how we could all use more time in prayer ... I genuinely thought, "I don't know if I could spend more time in prayer." It wasn't a prideful thought, or thinking I had arrived. The truth is I pray for my sanity, to sense someone is aware and hearing me in my ups and downs. I know Christ is with me always, so I take advantage of that to speak to the only person available.
I don't often think about it, but the truth is single life has enhanced my prayer life by leaps and bounds! How do you deal with loneliness? Is your prayer life better or worse than a different season of life?
I keep busy to avert loneliness and worry. But I also talk to God. Who else is always awake, even if you wake in the small hours of the morning. You cant phone a friend then but our Father is always available, without appointment or fanfare.
ReplyDeleteThese lonely moments are the best time to know yourself... To explore your mind and to find out what is hidden deep beneath your soul...
ReplyDeleteI also talk to God throughout my day. It started when I was first going through my divorce and I would lay on the floor and cry to him, begging him for a miracle. The miracle that I wanted was for my marriage to be saved. That didn't happen but I am okay with that because I got an even greater miracle. I was saved. I have always considered myself to be Christian and spiritually sound but I was so wrong. I had never fully put my trust in Him like I should have been doing. Now I talk to Him about everything. He has truly become my best friend!
ReplyDeleteeu também falo com Deus pois sinto que ele me ouve e me aconselha como ninguém.
ReplyDeleteSpeaking to God certainly makes the lonley time less lonley :-)
ReplyDeleteI sometimes talk out loud and it took me awhile to realize who I was talking to. It helps to know that we aren't alone.
ReplyDeleteIt makes perfect sense!
ReplyDeleteI have to keep the TV on just so I think there's another adult around. It gest easier
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Wow you are awesome you couldn't be more right i pray everyday,the feeling i get from praying is a since of safety,love and knowing that i have someone on my side at all times.God is so good to me i let him know that everyday he is my Rock,my rope if i start sliding down the mountain.I just want you to know Missy you make my day with these quotes your write very helpful good job God bless.
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